Some Wounds Don't Heal

So, I re-read the blog this weekend and checked all my links. . .

Things that struck me as I read:

• Sean was gone for 642 days
• I thought if we could figure out what it was, we could figure out how to deal with it.
• The fight it took to get him medical care.
• The fight it took to get him home.
• We have been struggling to get him appropriate care/diagnosis on one side of the fence or the other for FIVE years!
• I look at how far we have come with getting his symptoms under control and wonder what he would be like w/o meds. . .
• It is what it is. . . and now that we know what it is, what do we do with it?
• The sadness is completely and totally overwhelming even now.  I wept over many posts as I read, and it was a rerun.  I cannot believe the emotional impact this still  has on me.

I wonder if the pain we feel will ever feel better.  I wonder if there will ever come a time when we aren't wishing we were better prepared, or better informed, or more stable.  I wonder if these wounds will ever heal.